Resolutions...

So, it's been cold and snowy all day and we've been couped up all day long doing laundry. I need a break so I'm going to blog...
In the past I haven't done very many reflective entries... mostly just events. BUT, I've been wearing my glasses because I've been reading in between loads (as a side story, I don't have glasses... a year or two ago, I felt like my sight wasn't as good as it was, our plan paid for a set of glasses I got my eyes checked and they said I could use them for driving at night or movies... and so I got them since my plan paid for them. Anyway, I hardly wear them, but I've been reading a lot lately and my eyes started twitching, so I started reading with my glasses in case it's straining my eyes). ANYWAY, the glasses somehow have made me feel a little reflective, smart and attractive. I don't know, maybe it's the Sarah Palin eye glasses effect ... but even though I know I look dumpy in my ponytail, sweatshirt and jeans... I feel just a little more attractive. Sam came in and took a pic of me reading with my glasses, and a pic of my book... but then he looked at them and said he was going to delete the pic of ME, not the one of my book. So... maybe he doesn't feel the same.

Anyway, I've been thinking about resolutions but I hate to actually write them down in case I'm held to these resolutions. Growing up we ALWAYS had an FHE on resolutions, the first FHE of the year... so that should be tonight. Anyway, the first year we were married, I tried it with Michael and when we "shared" our resolutions... his were all silly or resolutions he made for me, and then I felt stupid sharing my soul bearing resolutions. So, we haven't done it since.
But, since I'm in my attractive reflective glasses wearing mood... I'm going to actually write down a resolution and put it out there in cyberspace because maybe that will give me good karma or something and help me achieve some of them.

So, I will divide it up into categories, mind and body. First,

"Come What May and Love It"
Recently, (I could look up the date but I wont) Michael was working late, and Elder Wirthin had just died that day. I decided to read his conference talk to remember his life. His talk was "Come What May and Love It." That talk is so great and the message was definitely something I could work on. I was glad that I didn't turn on the TV like I usually do when the kids are in bed and Michael is working. I even went so far and read the entire December Ensign (the likes of which haven't happened since I don't know when -- so it must have had some sort of affect on me right?). The next day, I ended up calling up a friend of mine and we were talking and for some reason she mentioned things were busy for her because her grandfather had just died. I told her how sorry I was and if there was anything I could do, or if I could watch her kids. Then she told me that Elder Wirthlin was her grandpa. I was really surprised. I have known her for 5-6 years, and I didn't know this. This girl is so great, and I've always been so impressed by her... I have known people who have been related to General Authorities or whatever, and it seems like a lot of the time they throw their names around a lot and somehow you ALWAYS know they are related to someone important from the church. Anyway, that is beside the point.

I have been reading my grandmother's journals. Boy, she had a hard life. Just living in that time had to be hard... (I'm right now reading in 1942) and just every day life was HARD. She is an inspiration to me. I have only read one year of her life, and so far, she has lost one little baby (she lost two little babies, both only lived for a day or two,but I haven't gotten to the second one in the journals yet) her husband traveled a lot and was gone with work or church duties. She had sick kids with stuff like measles, scarlet fever and the mumps (and I complain when my kids are grouchy from the shots that keep my kids from getting those things). And although I haven't gotten to this part in her journals, she was widowed with 8 young kids... at a young age and never remarried and did it all alone.
I am going to think of my grandma or mother and their tough lives and think "Come what may and love it" (because it CANNOT be as bad as what they went through?!) Plus, it will help me be happier and in turn our home will be happier.
Next is body, and I don't want any reminders or comments like... I thought you were going to work on your appearance. But...
Exercise.
I got my renewal license in the mail the other day, and I renewed it online and they just sent me a new one without any going into offices, etc. (slick!) Anyway, my old pic is on there... along with my old weight. I did NOT lie when I put that weight down... but, sadly it is a lie now. So sad in fact, that I don't know if I will ever get back to that weight. So, in my sadness... I'm going to try to exercise MORE (can't take much to do more than I have been doing... so this shouldn't be too hard right?!) I'm not going to quantify here, how much more, other than more. I remember laughing until I cried, when I was a college freshman, talking to a cousin of mine about "the freshman fifteen" (dumbstruck on how someone could gain weight when I was such a poor college freshman and living off of ramen) and she had told me of her and her roommates quest to lose weight. They decided one night to eat all of the food in the house that might tempt them, a big old smorgasbord of food. Bags of marshmallows, bags of chips, etc. At one point I thought that it was so ridiculous that I laughed at it... but it seems like ever since I've made this resolution in my mind... I've wanted to do exactly that. Down all the food in my house that tempts me. So, here I am... throwing it out into cyberspace trying to gain the willpower not to eat every last chocolate chip in my house...
Ok, that's it. I'm just doing two, they seem pretty big to me. I'm actually going to post this. I may regret it and decide to smash those glasses in retaliation for inspiring me to do something as silly as posting my resolutions online.